I grow up. Tonight, I realize that i just can’t trust anyone. Even your besties, brother, pal. At the right time, they will show up as a jerk and ruin your trust and loyalty.

Just trust yourself. Sheltered on God’s arm and everything just gonna be properly composed as God’s plan

Do you ever feel? Wake up in the middle of the night, feeling the emptiness in your heart, and you cry.. you cry until you can’t even breathe.

You feel lonely, you feel like no one cares.
inhale.. exhale..

And, when you meet someone that you need, love, care.. you can’t even feel the warmth any longer.

why? because you are afraid, because you already know you can lose him. Not forever. But for years

distance will separate you both. You have no idea what is he doing, you wanna see his face, you wanna keep in touch but you just can’t.

you know how can you still keep in touch with that person? with God. Pray for him. That’s the only way you can hug him

Politik, hubungan internasional, atau hukum.

“pipimu ituloh kok gendut….”

I don’t understand. I just need someone to talk to. to hug me when im down. hear my stupid stories. but you didn’t always there.. I bloody want to complain, but i know you won’t be there to hear my complains.

You don’t even know why did i enter the hospital and cried meanwhile i hold on that ill.

Remembering the night when you held my hands while we were acrossing the street. Your anxious face when i got a pale face and about to drop bcs rehidration. Your gentleman gesture to protect me from the other man. Your gentle voice to make me stay awake. And kiss my forehead when you took me home. I love you so much. Happy 15th months blacksweet reality

Ketika anak kelas dua lainnya lg sibuk main sana sini, hang out bareng, keluyuran, I’m here with those plans.

kalau udah naik kelas tiga nanti, i would study extremely hard, take some important courses, no more organization, no more competition.

udah cukup wasting time selama ini deh kayanya.

Dan aku mungkin bakal ambil kuliah di bandung, sarjana, kerja jd lawyer/jaksa/hakim/notaris, traktir orangtua whatever they want. umur 26 married. 2 tahun kemudian punya bayi perempuan, 3 tahun setelah itu, punya bayi laki laki. dan hidup bahagia selamanya. amin ya Rabb..